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August 5th, 2005
Unhapi?
hayz!!
ryt now npka unhapi ko!! d ko lam y.. halos 1 month na or rather mag 2 months na since nung nag decide ako mag risk.. kALA Q kz kaya ko kz d ko cia mkkta d ko mkkta mga txt nya or anything about sa knya or samin dlwa.. Pero look ngaun, wala aq gana sa work nag resign na nga aq e.. kazo dami sabi na wak sayang daw kz.. Pewo wala aq gana!! haayz!! d ko lam kung ano ggwin ko!!
Posted by crazy4u at 05:33 PM | 2 comments
May 7th, 2005
Hell of a week
5:30am - tatau na me from bed, then mag brush na me ng teeth
after that going to have my bath... At the same tym while i'm having a bath, i'm still thinking about my prob... Problem ko sa Mahal Q..
Haaaay!! even though i dont know kng mag work out pa un...
Though ganun ang iniicp ko.. i just cant let her go,
Honestly, i wanna quit na din, kazo its so hard 2 let go lang tlga lalo na kng madami na kau napagdaanan..
Yan pnka ayaw ko pa nmn! wanna knw y? kz i hate gudbye!!
And i hate rmmbering d memories!! and thinking it will not gonna happen ever again...
Once nangyari sakin un.. Pero this tym i dont know if kakayanin ko pa... Now ko lang na realize ung nag break kami and masama ung nagawa ko sa knya, habang pinapaaliz ko na cia...
Na realize ko, hindi ko tlga kaya... that's the reason why, i prove that i really love her.. not just that i love her lang, wat i mean is
MAHAL NA MAHAL KO NA CIA..
kala ko kz b4, itz ok lang na masabi ko na mahal ko cia..
kz ayaw ko mag isa..
but ryt now e2 me nababaliw na dahil sa isang babae lang.. Pero i dont regret it.. d only thing lang nmn ang panget pag inlove ka is ung ouch feeling pag nag break kau or kahit kaw na mismo nkpag break tpoz love na love mo.. un ung SUCKZ dun!!..
Haaay!!
Ryt now d2 me office, sobrang bz dami ko work..
But still, kahit nag Corwatch aq ng TV, and bZ na bz me..
Cia pa din laman ng icp ko..
iniicp ko wat if d na cia bumalik?
wat if sa sunday hindi cia dumating?
wat if sa sunday dumating cia pero, i'm gonna hear lang na ayaw nya na?
HAAAAY!!
d ko lam kng ano mararamdaman ko pag gnun nangyari..
Pero sabi nya ppnta cia..
And Love nya aq...
Nweiz bahala na po..
HAAAY!! bak 2 work.. 10pm pa labas ko sa work kz OverTime kz me now...
i 4got ang sarap pla mag work if u have diz inspiration
meaning i'm working not 4 me self. but for my love one...
i love u so much Shameless.. i know also do...
sana don't decide dat fast, think all the things and words that we said and done 2 each other.. dami na din natin Exp... i love u!!
Currently listening to: Crazy4u & Neon
Currently watching: ALL CHANNELS!! KZ WORK KO 2!!
Currently feeling: Depressed and Tired
Posted by crazy4u at 05:57 PM | 1 comments
April 30th, 2005
Tired of?
Tired of?
Damn i'm so tired na!!
D whole week lagi gabi uwi ko..
Coz of work and coz of my
PAIN IN D ASS
DAMN SHIT
CRAP SHIT
BULLCRAP
NON-SENSE
GURL OF MINE..
hehehehe!
Well i dont wanna preasure myself 2 much thinking of her
WHY?
Coz wala din mppntahan ung gnun pasasakitin lang nya ulo ko
NO WAY NOH!!
i've done it twice trying 2 carry on
pra lang masbi na i change and i can control na my temper
But still wala pa din..
YAH! convince aq na mahal na mahal nya aq...
And Lagi cia pnta sa hauz..
But still its not enough
i wanted more convincing
Haaaay!!
need 2 go na...
I'm thinking kz ryt now if mkkpag break aq..
wanna know y din?
Bec.
one is enough
2 is too much!!
hehehe!!
dami ko ede mging gurl dyan kz..
so bkit ko ccrain sarli ko..
dabah?
TY 4 reading my entry..
Currently listening to: Neon
Currently feeling: tired
Posted by crazy4u at 06:13 PM | 1 comments
April 8th, 2005
hardest thing!!
DAMN!!
Itz so hard 2 pretend na ok lang
Itz so hard 2 pretend na wala lang sau ung nangyayari
though deep inside masakit..
Itz so hard 2 pretend na u dont miz he/she
Itz so hard 2 pretend dat u dont love na cia
But u dont have any choice
kz u need 2 do it just 2 protect urself..
Maybe time can tell
and
Also time can heal all the pain
u just need 2 take all the pain
in order 2 heal and 2 accept na gnun na nga ang nangyari or mangyayari..
Currently listening to: crazy4u
Currently feeling: unhapi
Posted by crazy4u at 12:50 AM | Comment mo d2!!
April 7th, 2005
Non-sense
Non-sense?
Well, kttpoz lang b-day ko..
Then all i can say is NON SENSE!!
why?
Coz it didn't work out!
The way i wanted it 2 be
why again?
Wala ung Mahal ko
why again?
Coz mern pa kami unfinish buss.
MEANS!!
We do have diz certain prob na mhrap pra sa knya maintindhan..
i dont blame her..
Coz mern din me mistakes
Mistakes dat came from her
And followed by me..
Ang mali ko is Pinatulan ko pa ung gngwa nya..
Pero wat can i do?
is it bad ba na sabhin mo sama ng loob mo?
HAAAAY!!
Anywayz
atleast 4 a while i got my self busy 4 a while
and
i didn't think of her
mhirap kz ung nkkta lagi nya na!!
i do care
i'm so concern about samin
That i'm worried
That she's so special
AND
Bec. of those things
She became so confident of her self
But now i just woke up from my dream dat became a nightmare..
Haay!
but i do proven and learned
that
Itz not bad 2 show how much u love a person
But dont show it all
coz u'll never know if he/she appreciated it..
Currently listening to: Fallin
Currently feeling: tired
Posted by crazy4u at 02:21 AM | 1 comments
April 6th, 2005
Sad Birthday
2day is my 21st birthday
BuT dba dpat hapi aq?
pero ryt now hnd!!
dami problem
dami hussel
dami SHIT!!
and ung pinka malala!!
Ung only reason ko 2 be hapi is wala!!
rather nwwla or mwwla..
d ko alam!!
haaay! 
Currently listening to: crazy4u
Currently feeling: IN shit mode!!
Posted by crazy4u at 01:14 PM | Comment mo d2!!
Goodbye!!
GUDBYE
2
ALL !!
TNX!!
Currently listening to: crazy4u
Currently feeling: dEPRESS/DyING INSIDE/OUT
Posted by crazy4u at 02:28 AM | 1 comments
April 4th, 2005
Problematic?
When ur
Sad
Derpressd
Confused
Self Down
Shock
Stressed
Tired
CraZy
People alwayz look 4 something or some1 dat can help them 4get their problem or such feelings..
And most of the people look 4 a Company of a frend that they can
Talk 2
Share 2
and
Cry 2
So if u nid a frend i'll be here 4 u..
DAMN I NID DAT
RYT NOW!!
Currently listening to: Crazy4u
Currently reading: listening nga e
Currently watching: listening nga e
Currently feeling: depressed
Posted by crazy4u at 11:07 PM | 1 comments
Bye!!
Gudbye 4 gud!!
Coz i'm confused?
Coz i'm downed?
Coz i've been fooled?
Coz she's selfish?
Coz she's so blinded?
Coz itz so hard 2 understand 2 know wat she really wantz?
Maybe 1 of dat is d reason..
But no matter watz d reason
I just can't HOLD ON anymore
Coz i got no more reason
She made me do this..
Itz d hardest thing 2 do wen ur loving some1
But even if u dont want 2 and u cant leave on or rather move on
Sometimes something or some1 just push u through it..
But alwayz rmmber itz not bad 2 have ur limitation
or not 2 have ur limitation..
But it dependz on wat reason u have..
Ryt?
Currently feeling: Mental Block
Posted by crazy4u at 01:53 AM | 1 comments